Tangarines Vs Depressive Saturday night mood.

 Tangarines what is wrong with you? Why are you so good? I feel like i am addicted to crack!! I am positive pretty soon i'll find myself standing in a corner at some dark alley begging for some money to buy me some tangarines! God i feel tired this days, not psycally but emotionally it seems as if i have been on this planet about a 100 years and it's getting me down. i wish for a change a good change but in this hellhole i call my country nothing good is ever going to happen. Sometimes i whisper "I hate my life.." and then i feel guilty. Guilty because they are people out there that would give everything to have what i have, my health, my parents, my whole life...People with nothing but misery and pain in their lifes but even so i still feel like my life sucks. I have no love, no job and sometimes i think not a single friend in the world. When i grow up and become an old lady will i be all alone? With no friends and no family? I worry about that, about the future. I don't want to die alone only to be discovered 3-4 weeks later because of the smell..Ah well its Saturday and i'm being ubber depressing, i should go and continue my cooking..
Yours truthfully,
xxx.