Mistakes are made of this..

 At times like this, when I find myself thinking of my past loves, I wonder if the past is there to teach me something or to make fun of me for repeating the same mistakes again and again. When does the past become a guide through the future and when does it exist only to keep you chained to the same mistakes? I wonder if it all depends on the person and their attitude towards life. I am the kind of person that likes to think of the past all the time and it's not even a happy one! So...Am I scared of the future and that's why I return to the past or am i incapable of moving forward because I think that’s all I deserve? It's a hard one to answer and definitely it will take a long time to figure it out. For now I am going to get a good night's sleep and i'll think about it all in the cold morning sunshine...

 Yours truthfully,

xxx.

Second chances, do they ever work?

  How many times have we been in the position of considering giving a person that hurt you a second chance? Whether that person is a friend, family or a lover doesn’t matter what matter is this : Will a second chance work or not? The question is not that easy. Firstly we need to think of whether we are ready to let go of the pain and forgive the person that hurts us and secondly we should think long and hard whether we need that person in our lives, if he or she is that important to us.

  I recently gave a second chance to someone who had hurt me in the past and I still wonder whether that was a good decision. He treats me better than the way he treated me in the past but still do I really need him in my life? The answer is yes. As weird as that sounds he makes me stronger, through him I found a way to defend myself and  realize that I shouldn’t let anyone make me feel bad about myself. Through his  bad behavior sometimes I get strength and that is a good reason to keep him in my life, a second chance that could work out.

 Before you decide to give second chances to people think of what they can offer to you and not what you can offer to them, cos clearly what you did offer in the past was enough for them to come back asking for more. Unfortunately relationships now (any kind of relationships) are about what can the other person offer you in return..So see all your offers and decide what is the best for you even if that means you have to give someone a second chance..

 Yours truthfully,

Xxx.

To give or not to give?

   I had an interesting conversation with a friend the other day about whether one should be open with their feeling to their bf/gf or play hard to get and the conclusion was that one should be more open to themselves about their own feelings than with their partner. Why? Because people tend to absorb the feelings that were so openly given to them and keep theirs for someone that is not willing to share any. It is very weird and definitely very painful to those that are by naturally open-hearted and very sensitive but what can you do? Nothing, unless you are willing to change your personality for your own sake and find the best way to keep your heart safe from those that are willing to suck it dry and leave you for someone else.

 I have been the same, I still am the same. I give feelings to those that aren’t willing to give me any and do so from the beginning and when that relationship hasn’t worked out I feel cheated and used. A victim in other words but victimized by my own actions. I am acting in a way that makes it so easy for others to use me. What should I do to change? Well I need to be more selfish, more in control of my own feelings! Realize what I am forth and fight for it, I also need to stand up for myself when needed and when someone isn’t good for me and my life to get rid of them.

 In other words there is a lot of work to be done so I can say I’m strong enough to enter a relationship and deal with the emotional scaring I have left from previous relationships. Hopefully it will not take long and in the end I’m going to be a brand new person ready to live the “big love” before it’s too late.

                                                                                                                                     Yours trythfully,

                                                                                                                                                         xxx.